Stay Strong - Run Long

  Photo from eHealth Critic I have always been very open and honest about myself. I have brought to light some of my deepest, darkest problems through writing this little blog. I've talked about my addiction to food, my weight problems, yada yada yada and it has really helped me with perspective and healing. I'll be the first one to admit that I am a "food aholic" but recently I had a wonderful conversation with one of my very good friends who also deals with the same issues and it left me wondering, what is really driving me? What is my main goal with weight loss and running ultras? At first my motivation was to look "sexy". I'll admit it. I wanted to loose weight to look like a professional athlete with six pack abs and be able to walk around with no shirt on. There it is. There is the truth. But when I realized that my genetic makeup would never allow me the ability to do that I did it for people to look at me like I was a badass. Yep, when I

A full life can not be measured by the stuff you accumulate over your short time on this earth, but can only be measured by the experiences that you encounter during that time. ***This was written nearly 4 months ago and never published. I am finally happy enough with it to publish*** This past weekend was one of those that I won't soon forget. About 10 weeks ago my outlook on life indirectly took a detour that I was truly not expecting. It was a truly normal day. I was at work and was checking Facebook when I saw this from one of our good friends... What???? Blank Children's Hospital.......Leukemia.....CANCER????? What???? When you see this you go through an instant state of panic, hysteria, questioning. Everything. Do I call? Do I text? Do I leave them alone? These people are your oldest friends, call. But, what if they don't want you to call? What are you doing? You need to text them. You need to figure out what is going on. A few days went by and numero